Listen up, now. Lean in close and let me tell you what I’ve been feeling for some time now, been trying to fight and attempting to understand: I don’t feel like blogging.
I don’t even feel like writing.
Writers, those real writers who turn words into dollar signs will likely be the first to tell you that you don’t always write because you feel like it. You write because you have to, to pay the bills or simply because to not write would be to betray a part of who you are.
There are times I’ve felt like that too.
But lately each word feels like it has to be dragged out of me. They’re stuck inside, and the work of getting them out seems too much.
It’s not that I don’t have things I want to say–I’ve thought of tons of ideas for posts. But the actual plinking out of letters to form words to form sentences to paragraphs has not been happening.
“Butt in chair,” says Anne Lamott. That’s the key to writing–keep your butt in the chair and write just keep writing.
I like the sentiment, but the reality is much more difficult than it sounds. Yes, it’s butt in chair, but it’s also fingers on keyboard, heart spilling out onto the page, hope that some of it, any of it, is worthy of sharing.
And sometimes the words just get stuck, and it’s easier to leave them where they are than dig them out.
Til next time…
p.s. What do you do when you don’t feel like writing?