{Instead of writing a list of resolutions I probably wouldn’t actually keep, I’m writing a letter to myself for the end of 2014.}
Well hi there self,
I’ve written to you before–to the 16-year-old version and the 28-year-old version, but never the you only a year away. It seems more intimidating this way, to write to the you only 363ish days away.
I wonder what you’ve seen in those days. You’re going places soon–Denver, New York City, Nashville–the dates are on your calendar, your new suitcase waiting to be broken in. But maybe that’s just the beginning of the list. What other places will that suitcase see this year?
More important than where you went, though, is who you became. What have you learned in this past year? Have you let go of some lies? Have you held onto truths? Have you loved as well as you can?
Have you let God be the center of it all?
Whatever goals you did or didn’t accomplish this year, whatever good or bad happened to you that you could or couldn’t control, I hope you know that who you’re becoming matters more than all of it.
Maybe 2014 was the year it all seemed to go wrong, and you were left hanging onto shreds of what you thought you knew.
Or maybe it all (or mostly) went right, and you stand looking into 2015 from a mountaintop of glee.
Whatever the case, I’m wishing you well for wherever you are.
I think we both know that your biggest hope for 2014, as it has been for several years now, is that you will find a Somebody. A Jesus-loving boy who will help you love God more each day; not somebody who will “complete” you, because you are not incomplete, but somebody who will encourage you to be more you than you’ve ever been before, who gets that God is always my aim because God is always his aim too.
If that hasn’t happened, I hope you still know that you’re completely wonderful, excellent, and worthy all on your own.
Maybe in this past year you’ve gotten better about comparing yourself to others, but if you haven’t yet, here’s a reminder: It’s not worth it. Your story is not theirs, and that’s okay. Look for the goodness in your own, and let them have theirs. Life, and especially this funny time of young adulthood, looks different for everyone. Embrace it. Learn from it.
Most of all, I hope you’ve held onto hope.
Happy 2015, self.
Sincerely,
Me
p.s. What would you like to tell yourself for the end of 2014?
I am always in awe of the maturity you exemplify as a young adult. You are learning truths some never discover. I pray 2014 knocks your socks off. God knows you deserve it. My friend had me write a letter to myself about what I had learned in 2013 and what I need to remember this year. She will be mailing it to me at some point this year when I least expect it. Similar concept…
You’re so kind, Nicole! I always appreciate your thoughtful comments. And I LOVE the idea of writing a letter to yourself for your friend to mail you! I may need to steal that idea for next year. 🙂